So I dunno what to do anymore. After making 200 pockets per day every day for the last 2 weeks I feel like this job isnt what I though it would be at all.
I'm not learning anything, there's no variety and the public transport..... I know I kinda raved about how it was good I had it cause my father couldnt complain, but I will... I've never liked public transport, I in fact hate it. My dad hates driving in traffic, I in fact find it relaxing while having to wait 45min to 1h for the bloody train in the winter cold drives me completly mad on top of making me physically ill. I leave home at 4:30am and come back at 6pm. On top of that I have to care for the bunnies mornings and evenings (twice a day cause of freezing water bowls) and then I have to eat and shower. By the time all this is done I end up going to bed at 9pm with no rest or relaxation time wich makes falling asleep though by itself. And then I have to get up at 3:45amto get ready for the day....
Some of you might remember me mentionning how my health isnt the greatest..... this is a recipe for disaster. This thursday I started feeling rly ill while at work, ended up having to leave early. Normally we finish at 4:30pm, I left at 2pm, threw up on the way to the train and then when I got there I missed the 2:26pm train by 2min and had to wait till 4pm for the next one. I ended up getting home at 5:30pm, only 30min earlier then usual when I left 2h30min early. Feeling and being sick the whole way home.
Kanuk doesnt offer part time, so I cant even reduce my hours to give myself a chance.... This is not gonna work.
Then I had a slight chance at hope today when I had an interview for a job that could offer part time where I'd be able to drive to thus skipping the public transport I hate so. Cancelled work at Kanuk for the day, did the interview, I started feeling iffy about the place at that point cause for many things like health and salary she was like "you cant talk with any of the other employees about this", did their test, passed, they approved the salary I asked for and then were like here's your schedule : monday to thursday 7am to 4pm friday 7am to 2pm..... I stopped her saying how she told me I could be part time and then she went "oh I forgot, left me go ask" coming back saying how that could cause issues with the other employees and they'll call me back during the afternoon to confirm weither or not I have the job afterall. I wouldve never gone in the first place if she hadnt said I could be part time.... and obviously its now 9pm and I got no calls from em. Even if they do call at this point I feel like I cant trust that place and will flat out refuse the job.
Now I have to decide what happens with Kanuk... They wont let me be part time and I've already burned some of my reputation by leaving early thursday and cancelling for an interview today. They know I want to leave now so they wont care for giving me any training to do other things so more pockets, more bloody train and making myself weaker and weaker by the day.
I'm honestly considering quitting, I know it's only been 2weeks and I was so exited before but it's not what I hoped and my health wont last another week. Thatll leave me unemployed again but I think at this point I'd be better off working as a clerk in a grocery store or gas station 2 or 3 days a week insted of going to Kanuk. Salary would be the same per hour anyways..... and I'd save the 230$ monthly public bloody transport pass. I can be that until I find a seamstress job with a decent salary/schedule/distance or a work at home pay per item job.
I know this has been a wall of text but for those that made it to the end, what would you do?