Ordered to Hospital. (22 month Post-Op UDATE)

[Piper]

Grumpy
Logged in for updates on my favorite Grumpy poster.
I hate pain, drugs, and limitations! Feel for you! My whiplash (when a teen) required me to see Harold K. Gilbertson, DC (St. Louis area) who had a practice with his father. I credit them with restoring full mobility, without needing a surgery. Have you seen a Chiropractor?

Am so used to living vicariously through your posts, and (using what you have done as) motivation to study grammar/puctuation as soon as I have time!

Any thoughts on using the experience, as backgound, for a future character in one of your books?

 

[grumpy]

Grumpy
Logged in for updates on my favorite Grumpy poster.
I hate pain, drugs, and limitations! Feel for you! My whiplash (when a teen) required me to see Harold K. Gilbertson, DC (St. Louis area) who had a practice with his father. I credit them with restoring full mobility, without needing a surgery. Have you seen a Chiropractor?

Am so used to living vicariously through your posts, and (using what you have done as) motivation to study grammar/puctuation as soon as I have time!

Any thoughts on using the experience, as backgound, for a future character in one of your books?

I've got several ideas down on paper, Plus, I've written so many short stories for the folks on my face book page over the years that they're clamoring for me to incorporate all of them into a book. Which... would make for some very interesting but very diverse reading. I'm seriously considering this mainly because I've not generated much in the way of a novel.
Thanks for your continued support everyone.
Grumpy

 

[MaggieJ]

Incorporating your short stories into a book sounds like a good venture right now, Grumpy, while you wait for those ideas you've set down on paper to germinate and take root. I'll bet your next novel will take shape while you are looking the other way.

 

[macksmom98]

Praying that things will soon turn around for you. I hate to see anyone have to give up their passion and what they love, I encourage you to find ways to move forward. Maybe find the voice recognition equipment so you can read what you want to type while it types it out for you, and look at other options to start again. I know its not always that easy, some things involve finances and depression can set in where there is just no motivation. I have followed you for a few years (mostly quietly) but I can tell you are a mentor and special person even in the virtual world. Take care and feel better soon, you have a lot of people pulling for you!

 

[guardianoasis]

about your typing... I can't remember the name of the program but there are programs out there that will allow you to write and edit your work in all normal formats (so here on the forum and with word or whatever) by just talking. I know it doesn't make the situation better, but it does give you a less frustrating option for those times when typing is most difficult.

 

[grumpy]

I want to thank each and every one of you for the support shown me on this site. It's one of the few bright spots in the world that I live in nowadays. The limitations with my hands and arms have, without question, affected far more than the 'physical' aspects of my life. More so, my mental arena has taken a severe drubbing throughout this long and arduous ordeal. Oftentimes to the point of questioning my purpose of continuing. Before passing judgment, I ask each of you to consider walking a mile in these moccasins I'm now wearing.

I've several reasons I look to when I'm feeling really low. First and foremost are my adoptive sons. Although young men now, they still come to me seeking advice and guidance. The other is, of course, my writing. I've been developing a few different ideas. One that intrigues me is: "The Class-Ring". It's about......

A woman nearing the end of her life hands her Grandson an old, tarnished Class ring telling him, "This was your Grandfather's... Find him, and return it." Of course, therein lies the mystery because she'd kept secret her whole life the man's name who was the father of her son. She now reveals the fact that the man was alive and is presumably still living. But, before she can share his name, she passes away. Thus begins the odyssey of the young man in search of the 'Grandpa' he never knew he had. His Grandfather's initials are inscribed on the inside of the ring.. ((I hope...someday, he finds me.))

I now suffer even more than before... a disruptive sleep pattern and I've not yet gone to sleep.. So, I'll say good-night for the present and hopefully revisit this post in a few days.

Grumpy.

 

[MaggieJ]

Grumpy, I can only imagine how dark your life seems at present, but I think your love for your sons -- and theirs for you -- must bring some comfort. And concentrating on your writing is absolutely the best thing you can do right now.

I like your idea. Quests often make the most enthralling stories, and if your character's quest also becomes a voyage of self-discovery, I think you have a very strong story to tell.

At a low point in my own life, many years ago, I was given a talisman against despair. Just a few words, spoken by a person I respected: "Persist, endure, never give up. Never." Remembering that simple message has helped me hang on through through some very troubled times, and I still repeat it to myself when I need a little extra courage and strength.

Keep writing, Grumpy, and you'll find meaning and satisfaction in your life again in time. Persist, endure, never give up. Never.

 

[grumpy]

Passin' time... till time has passed.

 

[MaggieJ]

I'm having a rather bad day myself, Grumpy, so I won't say more than hang in there -- and I'll do the same.

I have a bit of an idea for you to consider, one that might tie in with the novel you're working on. Be in touch in a day or two.

 

[Featherhoof]

Grumpy, I started with my first meat rabbits and joined this forum in 2013 and followed your posts for years. I have had other focuses in my life the last 3 years. You have been an inspiration for me, here all the way in Florida. I have not been active with rabbits since my son was born in 2015, but my interest restarted recently and I decided to check in on you. I'm sad that you have not been well. I pray for healing and happiness for you. - Miranda

 

[Tuftles]

Grumpy is an inspiration to me too <3.
I'm a long time stalker, first time poster and it feels right to start here, sending a message to a man who inspires me deeply.
I hope that you feel even a little bit better, looking at all the loving posts made by a lot of people who you truly inspire.
I'm happy that life has gotten a little bit better for you, its hard to stand up when it seems like the powers that be want to push us down but getting up, whilst difficult is the only way to tell the powers that be to **** off, that they can't control us.
Keep getting up, sticking it to those who deny or try to put you down and get up slowly, but surely and stay an inspiration. Thank you for inspiring and encouraging so many and I hope that you continue to do so, even if you have to fight to do so.

 

[GBov]

When times are hard, hold tight to anything good in your life, even the little silly things.

So sorry for what you are, and have been, going through. You have been a guiding star in my life, thank you for all that you have given to me, half the time I do something simple - or complex - with my rabbits, I learned it from you.

 

[grumpy]

Thank You... each and every one of you.
I've not been on here for quite a spell... THANK YOU MAGGIE for
reminding me how many good people there are on this site.
It's been over a year since my last visit..

I'd like to ''share'' a bump in my road with all of you.
June the 8th, last year. about one or two in the afternoon
I was working in my shop when, without warning, the room
started spinning out of control... I felt deathly ill and began
sweating like there was no tomorrow. I waited 20 minutes or so,
thinking it would pass. but it didn't. It got worse to the point I
honestly felt like I was dying. (heart-attack.?) I didn't know.

What they say is true.!!! Your life literally flashes before your eyes.
I dialed 911, telling them my location. I had to crawl on all fours to the
shop doors to unlock them. Not wanting the EMT's breaking my doors down.
I crawled back to my chair and waited. They found me in around 15 minutes
and immediately started running vitals on me and putting me on a gurney.
Off to the hospital we went, sirens blaring and lights flashing.
I was sweating so bad, those ''sticky-thingys'' wouldn't stay put.

Long story short... I had every test imaginable, and they could
find NOTHING.!!!! An MRI..2 CAT scans... Heart thing (Sonogram?) where they can see
your heart on a tv screen...with that gooey stuff smeared around. YUCK...
36 hours wearing a heart monitor that was downloaded every hour.
I still couldn't walk without tipping over.... I used a walker in the room
as much as possible... Till the nurses caught me.!! They kyped my walker.

At the end of the second day, I could 'walk' {sorta} with a cane.
But not very far, nor very good.
The morning of the 3rd day they let me out at 10 a.m....
I waited on my '''ride''' till 11:30 when she showed up.
For the second time during my entire hospital stay... 'wow'..

Needless to say, the rabbits are gone forever now.
I'll never be able to do the work necessary to keep them.
I work in my shop making keepsake cedar boxes and such.
I'm trying to get back into the groove of writing. It's not easy, I assure you.
I want to start raising Lady Gouldian finches again.. (Google them..they're gorgeous.)
I did that for years but got away from them when the boys came into my life.

I stagger a lot and fall infrequently.. knock on wood, nothing's been broken.

Thanks again for all of your concerns....

Grumpy

 

[Homer]

Sorry to hear this Grumpy. Been there, done that, got the, T-shirt...so to speak. When it hit me I had to call the wife on my cell. Couldn't talk when I called 911! (with the GPS they already knew when I was). Just got out "Hospital" and she knew **** was hitting the fan. (not two feet away)! No voice volume, nothing.

But... it will get better, hopefully. Blew me up with balloons, and dropped in a couple stints. Actually, haven't felt this good in a long time.

Thanks, take care my friend! :bunnyhop:

edit: Sounds more like a stroke but forgot to say that.

Peace.

 

[michaels4gardens]

wish you the best Grumpy.
.... I have missed seeing your comments here..

 

[grumpy]

Grumpy, I can only imagine how dark your life seems at present, but I think your love for your sons -- and theirs for you -- must bring some comfort. And concentrating on your writing is absolutely the best thing you can do right now.

I like your idea. Quests often make the most enthralling stories, and if your character's quest also becomes a voyage of self-discovery, I think you have a very strong story to tell.

At a low point in my own life, many years ago, I was given a talisman against despair. Just a few words, spoken by a person I respected: "Persist, endure, never give up. Never." Remembering that simple message has helped me hang on through some very troubled times, and I still repeat it to myself when I need a little extra courage and strength.

Keep writing, Grumpy, and you'll find meaning and satisfaction in your life again in time. Persist, endure, never give up. Never.

Maggie, in spirit we must be brother and sister...
This is the mantra I've lived my entire life with and still do,
To This Day.

Grumpy.

 

[MaggieJ]

Maggie, in spirit we must be brother and sister...
This is the mantra I've lived my entire life with and still do,
To This Day.

Grumpy.

There you go, Grumpy! That explains it.

I've always known we had a lot in common: same age, both writers, both rabbit people . . .

And both survivors too.

 

[grumpy]

Maggie,
I'm 'kinda' glad you live 100's of miles away...
Otherwise, I'd be knockin' on your screen door
beggin' a cup of coffee and gossip session.
Imagine the hours upon hours of discussion
we'd enjoy on so many varied subjects.!!!

I can think of no other topic more important
than this for my 2000th post.

Have a super great day, Sis.

Grumpy.

 

[GBov]

Have you ever watched a program called Time Team?

When life hit me a double whammy I spent hours watching it on Youtube and it made me feel so much better. I felt a bit silly thinking I was the only one it helped when I read an article on how watching it helps ease depression by putting things into a 10,000-year perspective.

I recommend it highly and still watch it but not for hours each day.

Grumpy, no words of mine will do much good but you have all the love I can send your way, the loss of your rabbits is a bitter blow indeed. :encourage:

 

[grumpy]

Most folks know...I'm NOT real good at being told what to do...
My doctor learned this first-hand on April 9th. I'd just had an
MRI on my upper neck, trying to find the reason for the nearly complete
loss of feelings in both hands and arms. SO BAD... I cannot separate
two pages in a book, nor pick up a dime that I've dropped.

The specialist that read the MRI voiced extreme concern over the
possible collapse of my entire upper spinal column. Meaning either
total paralysis .......or instant death. I told my doctor that, "I don't JUMP
for anyone....you included." I was shocked and certainly worried...
but considering my age and the fact that I'd not had an accident, nor
involved in a car wreck.. it was easy for me to assume "OLD-AGE" had
played a major role in my problem. I realized my condition was serious.
But not to the point of placing my well-being in the hands of any
saw-bones I knew nothing about. I began my research and fact gathering.

I located one of the top neurosurgeons in the Mid-west, who happens to
practice at a premier medical facility. I contacted my Drs. office and told
them "WHO'' to contact and at which hospital. NOW....came the wait. It's
not easy to see this man, he's booked up so far in advance. But given my
issues (as they were told to him) he placed me on a fast-track list.. It still
had me scheduled for May 9th. I was without question worried as each day
passed... fearing some small 'bump' would be the end of me.

I did luck out and got called in last Friday to see him.. Imagine my relief
when he explained that I did not have nearly the severe issues people said
I did. YES...I've got one place that is serious... but nothing more. An hour
and a half surgery (painful) and a short time recuperation, I'll be good
to go. My loss of feelings in my hands and arms will ''mostly'' return over
time, but not completely. I can live with this considering the fact I didn't
honestly expect to survive the initial surgery. I'll take what I've been given
and thank the Almighty for his grace.

My recovery came to a sudden halt not a month after the above post. Unfortunately, I'm left with a 20% sensitivity in right hand... and a little better in the left with 25% sensitivity returning. And that's been the extent of it. I had another MRI done several months ago thinking something was starting to cause more discomfort. The doctor assured me that nothing untoward could be noted... BUT. He gently spoke, "Unfortunately, the spinal cord is a very unforgiving organ and that what I 'had' was most likely ''all'' I would ever regain."
I'm left ''as-is'' praying the doctor was wrong. smh.. Thus far he's been 100% correct. I've nearly closed down the rabbitry with only a few select does being held onto in the hopes that '''something''' positive will allow me to continue.
Have a good evening, Folks..
This has been a truly rough trip.
Grumpy