While most people are complaining about working on the holidays I have to complain about not working. I do my work online and given the 4 nondisclosure agreements about the program I'm not even going to say what company. Well I have a quota every month and due to insomnia med failure and a moronic doctor (typical when it comes to insomnia treatment) I spent 2 weeks unable to perform higher thought from lack of sleep. Take the longest you've gone without sleep and double the symptoms because I hit 6 days of 0 sleep without working meds. My subconscious starts to intrude on my conscious mind making things in my peripheral vision or that I'm not paying attention to turn in to other things basically the same as a dream works only while awake. Let's not start on the impact it has on thought beyond physical interaction with the world.

So I'm behind my quota, I spent all of yesterday reloading the page over and over to get as many work tasks as possible and made 1/8th what I need to. It would be 1/3rd but I couldn't get a hold of any higher point tasks so I'm getting a little under half as much for the same time span I put in last month. I thought I'd get up really early (very hard for someone with insomnia) and catch the tasks before everyone else today but nope. I've been reloading the page for the past 10 hrs except a 1hr break to scope new dog food brands and get a case of canned cat food. I have accomplished 0 tasks. All that's sitting in the queue require special certification to do and that would take 2 weeks unpaid to complete so not useful. It is getting really frustrating. I would be thrilled to do 8hrs of work today and tomorrow but they hire more people than they have jobs for. Then they fire whoever doesn't have the fastest internet, best schedule to get the tasks, and just plain luck in order to put in enough work. I have no idea what to do if I lose this job though because I already ran through the disability system and despite my health problems costing me my last job several years ago plus all attempts recently and my financial aid along with 3 semesters of college it would take a lawyer to make any more progress on getting disability.

I'm going to go find an auto reloading program for the rest of the night because I think I will still be here at 3am. I'm running out of other things to do on the internet and in the house near the computer...

Wow - that's intense Akane...I hope you are able to keep your job. Is there a better doctor that you can see about your insomnia? Is there a different computer-work from home job that you can do? What were you going to college for? How long do you have to go before finishing your college degree?

The problem with doctors is that insomnia as a main disorder is rarely seen or at least rarely extreme enough to get diagnosed as such. When it is seen it's very difficult to track down the cause. The only doctors qualified are good neurologists. The good neurologists though are busy and see dozens of cases of psychological insomnia all the time so if there are no other neurological symptoms they write it off as psychological and send you to a psychiatrist or back to your general doctor if they are experienced enough. They then attempt to treat you with psychiatric medication for a physiological disorder. The common psychiatric medications for insomnia aim at reducing depression or anxiety causing the insomnia. They also destroy the sleep architecture. Sleep is made up of 4 phases and you have to get through all 4 at the correct amount to feel rested which is proper sleep architecture. People who do not have insomnia as their main problem can counter the bad effects of the sedating anxiety medications and sleep better. People who's sleep architecture is destroyed from a physical problem can't. The medications psychiatrists find the most sedating for other patients end up doing nothing (I can take 10 times the dose of common sleep aids and be wide awake) or actually make the insomnia worse by stopping the deepest phases of sleep. Then everyone throws up their hands and says they have no idea what to do.

Except several weeks prior to my medications failing I send in the research on the next medication that should be tried because I know it's coming sometimes in the next couple months. It gets ignored since the doctor has never heard of those medications and I get given one of those anxiety meds that are known as sedating until the doctor gives in and tries my idea or I go to the ER after 5-6 days of 0 sleep and the ER finds me a new doctor who will prescribe the med. This is how it works for more than 10 years. A good doctor for insomnia is the one who actually tries to prescribe something that works instead of telling you that no one has died from lack of sleep and it can all be fixed by following their version of the sleep hygiene rules. 8 years on 1 to 2 hrs of sleep a night says otherwise. Aside from long term insomnia with no treatment being a livign nightmare I'm pretty sure what my teenage body survived my current body would not and something would give but then it would be ruled death by whatever instead of insomnia.

__________Fri Dec 30, 2011 10:17 pm __________

*Reload*
"No tasks are currently available in 1 or 2"

Wow, Akane, I am so sorry to hear about all this! I wish I had something constructive to offer. ILoveBunnies has to take 6mg of melatonin every night to go to sleep and stay asleep... seems that many autistic people don't produce enough melatonin on their own.

Contrary to what some doctors think, the body does NEED sleep. That's when it repairs itself. Without sleep, the body begins a slow decline. I pray you find an answer, and sleep. And that you keep your job.

*reload*
"There are no tasks available in 1 or 2. Try again later."

I'm going back to sleep.

__________Sat Dec 31, 2011 2:03 pm __________

So apparently there have been pretty much no work tasks this entire week. I found a few people talking about it and a ton are not making their quota. Even those that passed the quota to keep a contract are not meeting their personal goals. Didn't find out exactly why beyond some rumors of upgrades, maintenance, holiday break stuff going on with the company and the people who maintain their servers. Maybe we will all get given an exception for the month. Would have been nice if the company said something.

Thats awful.im sleeping too much and i wake up tired.my hubby says time too see the doctor.doctors yuck!i fall asleep everywhere.